Everyone, one way or another has an opinion of me. Whether it's good or it's bad, i am not quite sure.
I've decided that you guys judge me after knowing the complete side of me. Some are personal but i will share so that i will be in a lighter heart.
I've joined a gang ever since i am in secondary two, because i was forced too. I am sorry for keeping this to everyone. I am not a nice guy :(
Secondly, I have multiple personality disorder, a condition not known to my parents. Apparently, they do not care for me as much as I would love to be cared.
Now come to the most disgusting and disgracing part of all, 36 boys/men had been 'kicked around' by me. I am sorry guys, if I were to meet all of you again, I would fall to my knees and begged for forgiveness.
I have lied to the girl who loves me ever so much, Roslinah. I told one lie after the other to cover up for those I lied. Mostly on my gangster side of life. I am sorry you, I have gone to great lengths to ask for your forgiveness but you are still hostile towards me. Hostile you may seem, but deep down and under, I know you forgive me. Whatever it is, I am proud that I admitted.
Irfaan, Naqib, Azhar, Sadiq, Huda, Dayana, Mashitah, Firdaus, and most importantly, Roslinah, I apologize from the bottom of my heart to all you great people, for whatever stupid things I have done to you.
I don't mind, if you guys would avoid me or nonchalantly judge me as a bad person because I am one.
Sorry sorry sorry sorry.
Now, i feel at peace. God, Ive done it. Thank You.
I love you.
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